Learning from rumba night

September 30, 2008 / 229 Comments

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Last night we danced the Rumba! Wow this show is a huge challenge for me! I really thought I did a good job! But the judges thought differently!

I was really trying to break down what I am doing wrong. The fact that I have never performed before in front of anyone—let alone 25 million people—is a huge accomplishment to me when the dance is done because I am so out of my element here, and it feels like such a rush when we are dancing!

This show is teaching me a lot! When talking to Reggie about it, he made a good point, that I have never played a sport where I would win or lose a game, I have never competed against anyone before where I would be judged, and just learning all of this is teaching me more about ME!

Although I am learning choreography and spending hours in the dance studio, I think I am learning so much more about myself than I ever imagined. So at the end of the day, this is such a life changing experience.

To be honest last week, I cried so hard when I got home, just knowing this is SO hard for me and I really am trying—but my inner shyness is making it look like I am just not trying. I think I took it way to seriously and I was a nervous wreck on Wednesday.

This week I am just having more fun with it and haven’t really let the judges comments hurt me. I feel that in life when challenges come your way, sometimes God tests you, and wants you to learn, because that is what life is about! I hope the plan he has for me is to stay in a little bit longer, because I don’t think I have learned everything there is to learn from Dancing With The Stars yet!

I haven’t quiet come out of my shell and I so badly want to! Each dance gets easier for me but I’m not ready to give up on this inner challenge that I’m faced with by a simple dance! I know it seems silly that dancing is this big of an inner struggle but it is and I so badly want to overcome it and have fun with it all at the same time! This show is a blessing and I hope you all are just enjoying this journey with me!

It was great to have my dad’s side of the family there to watch and support! My cousins Kourtni and Kara Kardashian came with my cousins Chey and Julie. I definitely felt the love!

My friend Caroline D’Amore also came to support!

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Comments 229

  1. Marie  |   Posted on Sep 30th, 2008

    Hi Kim! I thought last night was the best you have danced. I loved it!All my votes are on you girl! Keep up the good work! Hugs & Kisses!

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  2. Karen  |   Posted on Sep 30th, 2008

    I like Kim she is a beautilfule woman

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  3. KIMB0  |   Posted on Sep 30th, 2008

    KEEP YOUR HEAD UP GIRL!
    WE KNOW YOUR REALLY TRYING. I CAN’T IMAGINE HOW MUCH NERVOUS YOU CAN BE WHEN YOUR GETTING READY TO DANCE. AND IN FRONT OF MILLIONS OF PEOPLE.

    STAY STRONG KIM.

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  4. Sherdelle  |   Posted on Sep 30th, 2008

    I really hoping that Kim does well and stays there for the final. I really voting for you keep up the good works Kim!

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  5. p  |   Posted on Sep 30th, 2008

    kim i kuld tell ur like me and i kinda knew that u felt like crying last week when u did the mambo cause u stood there fr 2 hours and i know that u want to show the world wat u kuld do but just dont sit there and think wat 25 million people think..fcuk em!! the world obviously loves u..i mean hello ur reality show is on season 3 and is the highest rated on the network! u should be proud of urself and just think about ur dad and not any1 else who is watching..i kno that these comments that some people post r hurtful but thats just cause they’e jealous cause ur frigen gorgeous and uve made it this far..uve survived 2 eliminations alredy,just use this to ur advantage(fr publicity)..btw-congrats on the ok!magazine cover!!

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  6. angie  |   Posted on Sep 30th, 2008

    Kim!!
    You looked stunning!!
    Keep giving it your best!!
    I vote for you every night!!

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  7. anonymous  |   Posted on Sep 30th, 2008

    Kim look at it this way…there are people in life going through REAL problems that are actually worth crying over…DWTS is NOT something worth crying over. How can you be shy when you posed without your clothes on for millions to see? I think it’s time you just admit that dancing is not your thing and that’s ok because you don’t always have to be the best. You’re used to getting by on your looks and you are definitely beautiful…and like reggie said you have never had to compete in anything before. But alot of the people on DWTS had no dance experience and they are managing to do just fine. It really looks like you are not into it when you’re on the dance floor. Why would you want your fans to keep voting for you when you know you are not as deserving of the votes as others on the show? Is that right to do? You want to get by on your fashion taste and make-up and hairstyles once again. You obviously don’t know what competing really means then. How are you learning anything from this when you’re begging your fans to vote for you when you didn’t earn their vote? That’s not the way to go. I think you should have put up a post about your dad since it’s the 5 year anniversary of his death. Just make him proud.

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  8. Hillary  |   Posted on Sep 30th, 2008

    Girl…

    You are doing well! Every week you progress! The judges have some issue with you i can’t understand. I think next week you should blow them away completely. Infact you were headline news on yahoo today because of this, so in that case blow AMERICA away. You are so much more than a pretty face, i am rooting for you until the end! That being said realize this is a rollercoaster ride and before you know it will be over…. HAVE FUN you only get this chance once. :)

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  9. LaToya  |   Posted on Sep 30th, 2008

    I am definitely rooting for you KIM. Although I love Toni Braxton..there’s something about you that just keeps me intrigued. I just want you to break out your shell so bad because I feel like you have it in you and it is just waiting to come out. I know what the problem is…and I swear I am not a hater and I am not trying to be smart.. as a dancer I can tell that not only are you shy but it’s like you also try to be too cute out on the dance floor. It makes sense though because that’s what part of being a celebrity is all about..image and you might not want to mess that image up. It happens to alot of dancers (when they start out) because they feel as though they might look stupid out there making ugly faces and dancing hard. But to tell you the truth..that’s what it is truly about really getting into it. You really need to just block everyone out and dance like it’s just you in front of the mirror. Dance the hardest you ever danced in your life..make the ugly (but sexy) faces, hit those marks, and most of all just really give it your all (more than what I have seen these past two weeks..you definitely have it in you KIM). SO what if you don’t look cute while doing it..atleast you danced your hardest and your best. I REALLY hope you read this and if you need some more encouragement I am here..because as a dancer who was once shy herself..I know what it’s like!!! YOU CAN DO IT..GOOD LUCK and I will definitely vote for you!!

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  10. Dreamz  |   Posted on Sep 30th, 2008

    First let me congratulate you with everything you have achieved. Second you say your shyness is making it seem that your not trying but then again I don’t see the shyness when you have the cameras following you? I always see that your interacting with the camera men and you love the camera. I know this is not the same you just have to work harder but I don’t think SHYNESS has anything to do with it.

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