Last night we danced the Rumba! Wow this show is a huge challenge for me! I really thought I did a good job! But the judges thought differently!

I was really trying to break down what I am doing wrong. The fact that I have never performed before in front of anyone—let alone 25 million people—is a huge accomplishment to me when the dance is done because I am so out of my element here, and it feels like such a rush when we are dancing!

This show is teaching me a lot! When talking to Reggie about it, he made a good point, that I have never played a sport where I would win or lose a game, I have never competed against anyone before where I would be judged, and just learning all of this is teaching me more about ME!

Although I am learning choreography and spending hours in the dance studio, I think I am learning so much more about myself than I ever imagined. So at the end of the day, this is such a life changing experience.

To be honest last week, I cried so hard when I got home, just knowing this is SO hard for me and I really am trying—but my inner shyness is making it look like I am just not trying. I think I took it way to seriously and I was a nervous wreck on Wednesday.

This week I am just having more fun with it and haven’t really let the judges comments hurt me. I feel that in life when challenges come your way, sometimes God tests you, and wants you to learn, because that is what life is about! I hope the plan he has for me is to stay in a little bit longer, because I don’t think I have learned everything there is to learn from Dancing With The Stars yet!

I haven’t quiet come out of my shell and I so badly want to! Each dance gets easier for me but I’m not ready to give up on this inner challenge that I’m faced with by a simple dance! I know it seems silly that dancing is this big of an inner struggle but it is and I so badly want to overcome it and have fun with it all at the same time! This show is a blessing and I hope you all are just enjoying this journey with me!

It was great to have my dad’s side of the family there to watch and support! My cousins Kourtni and Kara Kardashian came with my cousins Chey and Julie. I definitely felt the love!

My friend Caroline D’Amore also came to support!

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Comments (229)

  1. Hi Kim, I have created a myspace page to support you and Mark. We are very proud of you and we will keep on voting!

  2. Kim,

    Stay positive. I believe you are trying your best and at the end of the day, just have fun with it and don’t worry about all those negative comments being posted. When you go out on the dance floor, pretend like it’s acting and sell the part. You can do it girl! Hopefully you make it to next week.

  3. jay jay  |   Posted on Sep 30th, 2008

    kim the fact is that u tried, thats all that matters. i think u looked great . yeah u can work on ur moves a little more nut i also understand that u are shy just like myself.But stick it out and dont allow anyone to tamper with ur confidence ( u taught me that ) ……. smooches

  4. taryn  |   Posted on Sep 30th, 2008

    u looked gorgeous kim and u can tell that u have been trying. keep up the practice and hard work and it will pay off! hope u stay longer

  5. Hey kim, I actually feel u did just a little bit better. Try to use the comments the judge give u to do better, try to move ur hips a little bit more. Try to get in character when u dance and u will improve. Best luck tonight, keep up the good work.

  6. this show is a challenge for you because youve never worked hard in you life…do you have any talent other that shopping and looking pretty?dont think so.

  7. Kims #1 Fan Melissa  |   Posted on Sep 30th, 2008

    When Kardashian’s invade!

    You did good, but just come out of that shell! Just do it! Hopefully you make it to next week.

  8. tinabwms  |   Posted on Sep 30th, 2008

    I really hate how the judges have to give sometimes brutal criticism. I think that you are really trying. I think sometimes people see celebrities as the people who should be able to do anything, but you are a beginner in these types of dancing. I really hope you stay on DWTS a little while longer. I voted for you!!!! I pray that you have continued success.

  9. Yuni  |   Posted on Sep 30th, 2008

    Kim,

    Keep your head up and keep doing your thing!!! We all know you are trying your best and your hubby is right… This is the first time you ever comp. in something and just bc your Kim K. don’t mean you have to be a pro at this.. I know your human and your trying your best! your doing great out there girl!!! Have fun and don’t let their comments get to you!!!!

    Love you!!!!

    KIM Numero UNO!!!!!!!!!!!! :]

  10. gaby  |   Posted on Sep 30th, 2008

    Kim dont let anything get in your way. We know you can do it, an you will, you just need to loosen yourself up more an you will do great. But we are supporting you to the end, an we know you are trying hard, just dont give up. Dont stress yourself out so much just trust yourself, an your going to be fine. ‘SO GO KIM’.

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